This week is exhausting.
We have commencement. The annual Spring Show kicked off last night. Thousands queued up, forming a line two city blocks long, to view this museum of student work- some of it undisputedly world-class.
From fine art, sculpture, industrial design, animation and game design to transmedia storytelling (my school), we have some killer work to show the job market.
I’m supervising course builds that will be featured in the Summer semester. I’m in the home stretch of authoring a couple of classes as well.
A break, albeit brief, is near.
But there will be no real break.
I have a book to finish.
Months of procrastination, combined with months of research and writing for school, teaching, counseling clients and making sweet, simple time to be with the GF and the kids has consumed the bandwidth.
You can’t go around telling people you’re a “writer” and then, when asked what you have actually published, you say, “I’m working on it.”
You can say that all your life.
Sometimes we say we are something we are not, but it’s not because we are liars or hustlers. We say we are something because it feels so good to attach ourselves to a glorious goal. It’s a way of reminding ourselves that we have something to do, but freeing ourselves of the obligation of actually doing it.
I’m going to use the break to finish editing, then publishing my book. I know I can count on Mom and Dad to buy a copy, and perhaps a couple of others, but the sales totals are not the main motivator.
I want to be a published author. I have a book, sitting here at the big desk, beckoning to me, “Finish me.”
I’m going to finish it during the break. It will be checked off the bucket list. No more procrastinating. No more. The world isn’t going to stop turning and wait for me to get around to it.
I’m going to do it. Dammit.
John Scott is the National Online Learning Coordinator and a media history professor at the School of Multimedia Communications, Academy of Art University, San Francisco. He also counsels clients and groups on the art of reinvention. Follow John on Twitter @johnscottsf.